its all good., its all hood...

walk through a bigger block, two glocks, two techs, two 2'3's-
give a bitch what he really wants, when bitch clicks dont want beef,
bitch clicks don't want me!, i just wait till they get in range.
hate it when a bitch runs his mouth out ,
''lives his life in pain''

we aint even used to this 'talkin'

where the gun shots at???

loose lips, same shit ,, you bitch's didn't even pop back...

ho lord, i swore, if any mother-fucker ever hollard my name,

i'm Raw spelt backwards, thats what i'm gonna bring....

thats what Phaze thinks, we got guns and troops,

every thing bulletproof, snypers laid down on the roof....

stash box in the coupe, i'm tellin you the truth,

i raised them little itty bitty boys , all they wanna do is come shoot....

black gloves, black mask, black shirt, black pants,

blue steel, blue vest , heated , you next...

put a couple of holes in a ho, let a buster know hes about to go,

put the punk right to his throut bet he wont talk no more,.

i'm comin through the front door, mask on lets ride.

everybody on the mother-fuckin floor as soon as i get inside.

my hood, my click, yr wife , my bitch.

show a fool you really love him and set him up for a good lick..

the cops are comin, an i'm out runnin .

if i do die, dont cry. i aint planning on stayin here long any how i anit gonna lie..

wounder why i've still got bricks? wounder why i've still got clips??

cuz aint a damne thing changed since young phaze done got rich..

are you ready for the outcome? why you walking around without a gun??

this shits real when a friend gets killed, then you wanna run and get one,.

fuck that,,, i'm callin out names,!

- _ _ _ _ _ 's.

black gloves, black mask, black shirt, black pants,

blue steel, blue vest, heated, you next....

its your move bitch, I dont even care how it started,

fuck me, fuck you!!!

wait till i get home we'r really gonna get it on, but for now just hold on,

i'm gonna really show you how to break a bone..

longford to the key, we here for life,

COV Unit......

court.

court day was on. and this was quite a big thing for me as it wasn't a normal court day.

this time i was not able to be repersented as i was not granted leagal aid and i could not afford a solicitor.

so i repersented myself!

i had all the info,, all the police reports and statments from all witnesses includin my own.

it was quite scary as i had to revise all this paper work.(just like bein back at school)lol.

we entered the court room and on the opposition was a barister(you know? them pricks with the wigs).

a solicitor , two asistent silicitors and the managers from the housin office i was rentin the flat off.

then there was just me!

i had revised the paperwork and read all the statments from front to back.

i was quite nervous as it was all new to me, not court but just not havin a solicitor to lean back on..

as the judge walked in my heart dropped as i thought he would take one look at me and laugh and then i would be kicked out of my flat.

it started off with the charges againt me which sounded worst than it actully was, but this didn't bother me as i knew the routine. then it was time to bring in the wittnesses and the solicitor for jephson housing was asking them questions and the answers were all lies.....

they were just trying to get me out as they were making the flats where i lived into house's.

the first wittness was 'Gary's' wife and she came out with all kinds of shit, sayin it was me that started the fight and that she was there the whole time and watched me''attack'' her husband...

then i had to ask the queations and ross examine her,. and i remembered a line in her statment that stated her leading her children away fron where myself, Gary and Rich colided. and that she had heard me making the first punch,,lol. if three people are fightin? then without you being there then how can you hear who took the first punch???its impossible and the judge knew it as well, so her bollocks was chucked straight out the window..

the second wittness was gary, and he was just as stupid.

he came out with a load of crap sayin i had shouted abuse across the street at his seven year old daughter after getting off the bus, so he came out to investigate and saw me drunk and aparently when i saw him i went over and started the fight. but i had my own witness for that. a shop keeper who saw it all and one of the questions that was put to him was that , if he had know gary for ten years and me for six months, then why would he protect me?? and his answer was '''because its the truth'''

so that was gone aswell.

i had another wittness called stacey who was quite young at the time so jephsons solicitor tried to pick on her and seek the real truth, but as WE was tellin the truth he didn;t know wot to say.. he was calling her a lier and tryin to break her down and i think the point as when the judge stopped it as when stacy turned round and said-

''well you wern't fuckin there was ya!!!!''

and the whole court uproared as the prosicution was beat by a 14 year old..

then it was the grand finarly, wher each side says their version of events after they peice their story together,.

their story was simple, i had got off the bus in a bad mood and saw gary and 'kicked off' and that rich had no club and that he wasn't even there....

but when i read the statments with the addresses, i noticed that rich lived above the pub in the square called the couch and horses''. so my story was that when gary daughter saw me getting off the bus, she then went back to the pub to tell her dad and thats whenn rich went upstairs to his room an go the club an then they both came lookin for me.. an that was the jist of it..

i ended up winning the case and jephsons had to pay £14,000 court an solisitor costs and was warned that if they ever brought a case to tril again without lookin into detail then they would be chared for waistin court time..

i really dont think they bothered me again neither gary's family or jephsons.

Black gloves!!(''raw'' spelt bakwards)fuck me! fuck you!!

SCHOOL is over, and this is where it all started. Drugs, crime and all sorts of activite's.
i remember a house party that wasn't like your avarage party.... when we done it, we done it with style.

i was hanging with some of the local lads and we new how to have fun. i was a young and out of control lad with the balls of a 30 year old and mates to go with it. i was never a thief so when i say ''crime'' i dont mean that sort of stuff, but i mean ''i saw a lot'' we were doin drugs like the sort of stuff u c in films, carrier bags full of weed or kilos of soap bar, our partys would contain people of all races 'wanted or not', dogs chained to the front and back gates to the house as a warning to any one who wanted to enter. there would be certain ''meat heads'' situated around the house just in case people would disrespect. some would carry heat and others just C.S gas but most were big enough just to use man made wepons''FISTS''.

the best party we had consisted of about 60 odd people, every room in the house was full, front and back garden too.

even though i have done and seen alot i am sittin here(with a beer) tryin not to bore you, thinking of different situations in my life but i am finding it hard to put in order for you to read,. different times i remember lead me to something else i remember.......(so please bear with me)

im mainly righting this blog to release my anger in words rather than force, as the ''later'' tends to get me in trouble with the law and even locked up in some cell or prison... i have been locked up in a cell for a weekend so many times it was like a second home. alot of it was for stupid drunken stuff like- bein walked home by a copper to my door because i was drunk and pulling out a bag of weed instead of my house keys,lol. i mean, how stupid is that?

other time i used to get drunk or druged up and have to find a way to release my anger usin different levels of force or violonce. wether it be smashing property (wether it be mine or someone elses).

when i lived in my own flat in Sydnall fields, longford,coventry on a small estate is when i was proberly my worst time of being lonley and out of control. many times i was in court for violance and going in and out of jail for fights, but i didn't learn. people just would not leave me alone and stay off my back!!!

i got fucked by the law once when i saw this guy hitting on his wife one night outside my flat. and i saw it.

i shouted to him out the window and he just shouted abuse back to me. so i went out..

i told him how i felt and warned him, but he took no notice and laughed at me...

MISTAKE!!!

i confronted him and he hit me twice in the face, i didnt feel a thing!" i just stood to the side and hit him twice with the left hand, took a step back and gave him ''whats called a Tyson punch'' as recalled by a friend who saw it,.

and BOOM!!! with the right and knocked him clean out on the floor like a baby,.

i got nicked that night and was released the next mornig on bail and just as i was getting the bus back to the square i was walking past the Londis shop when i saw this guy again,. i just carried on walking as if nothing had happened but he had oviously not forgot that easly. but this time he was with a friend who was armed with armed with half a golf club. i think they were on their way round mine anyway..

they stopped and turned towards me and the lad with the bat said ''this has got your name all over it!!''

i just laughed........

gary(the 1st one) came at me!

i just moved and dropped him in one, then it was rich's turn....

he came at me and swung his club towards my face, i took a step back and then kicked him in the jaw putting him to the floor.... then i turned my attention to Gary who was just gettin to his feet, so i stopped him in mid track and got him by the scruff of the neck and continuosly punched him to the face, holding him so he couldn't fall.

then some guy pulled me off(his way of helping me). by this time Rich was comeing at me again.

so i said to this guy holding me in a calme voice

''are u gona hold me and let me get hit??''

without an answer he just let go while i kicked this man a second time in the face from a standin position..

then he held me again,lol...

i went back to court fof this...

i really did think i was going back to jail for this,. ''maybe there is a god''